Current mood:

restless

"Here's me..."
I had to borrow a Zinn phrase for the subject line. When he hides and then jumps out to surprise us, he yells, "here's me!!!" In some ways I'm dreading the day when he uses grammatically correct English.

So yes, here I am. Obviously I haven't had much of an interest in posting on LJ lately. As a matter of fact, I haven't been posting in my blog or making any updates to Magdalene.org, either. To put it quite simply, I'm sick of it all.

My devotion to Mary Magdalene started out as just that: a devotion. Somewhere along the line she turned into a community pursuit, and then a subject of historical research, and then an idea to be defended. After The Da Vinci Code, she became a commercial opportunity.

At this point, I've just gotten tired of all of the controversy, tired of being criticized for my disagreement with people who insist on revising history, tired of defending rational thought, tired of arguing with crazies who point a finger at me simply because I'm visible.

I'm going to give up my blog, and yesterday, I ordered a domain name appraisal for Magdalene.org.

I haven't committed to anything yet, but honestly, at this point, I would rather be an anonymous devotee than a public target. The benefit just isn't there for me anymore, and I feel like I've lost touch with the original impulse behind my devotion. That is what is important to me. I've spent nine years of my life on Mary Magdalene, and now it's time to move on.